Today I spoke with my parents' therapist. Today I tried to convince them my sister should no longer be living in my parents' home. I never thought I would be trying to convince someone to remove her from the family. I tried to explain everything that I think and feel, and I realized how hard it is to put it all into words.
There are no words to explain the desperate feeling of wanting someone you love to get the hell out of your life and the lives of other people you love. There are no words to explain the feeling of loving the little girl in those baby pictures but wondering if you are learning what it might feel like to hate the teenager that little girl has grown into. There are no words to explain the feeling of wondering if your sister will end up killing your parents, directly or indirectly.
There are no words for this.
A. Bender
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